Give it time

 Colorado Mike and I had a long discussion today.  We are not abandoning the whole situation and I feel like we still belong in each others lives.  We are very familiar with each other after 26 months and all the work we did to get to this place would seem wrong to throw it all away.  I don't love him so much in the romantic way but in a married way.  We support each other but he is pretty much a rigid type person.  My previous relationship was more fluid -- I like men who can actually feel things and express their feelings.  Some people are not capable.  They are able to in some ways but not in the most important ways.

Having a long distance relationship 900 miles apart is somewhat of a convenience.   Its easy to cling to the best aspects of a person and only remember their good influences.  I was with someone less intelligent with me and I could offer him advice about things I know a lot about -- choices for his diabetes, his lack of computer knowledge and better business choices.  However, it is also easy to forget their negative traits.  He has many and that's why I can't really be with someone who doesn't have a broad based knowledge of Christianity and is following a Christian path.

I left my primary job in late October and worked 4 jobs from Nov 10 to Feb 10.  One only lasted a month during that time.  Now that I am down to 3 part time jobs, life is a lot easier because I don't have to obsess about making money.  It gave me time to reflect on what direction my life should go when my son left for boot camp.  I got to go to Colorado for 4 days in early Feb.  Things are pretty much set now until July 3 when I fly to Georgia for my son's army graduation.  I have quit gambling and I am seeking healing in all areas of my life apart from the material world.  I am focusing on the spiritual aspect of life that prepares me for entering the kingdom.  Eternal life are for those who want to be fully immersed in God's kingdom, influence and knowledge.  If our eyes are on the ball, the transformation will take place.

I am tired

I had a 14 hour work day and I have to go back to work in one hour.  I don't want/need anymore drama.    Anyone who breaches people's private emails, texts in which they should trust is not on my list of admirable people.  I need my space.  I know what time it is with the people who are important to me and they know with me.  This blog is pretty much going back to being private and only musing on my favorite authors, my own creative writing and my radio posts.  Readers who think they have a stake in my life and are dependent on me for their self esteem.

Turn your life over to your higher power.
Examine your co-dependency.
Heal thyself through prayer and meditation of scripture.

Louis Farrakhan preaching on Rodney King incident.

The Honorable Minister Louis Farrakhan delivered this historic message at Southern University in Baton Rouge, Louisianna on May 9, 1992.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6b09aXynJ8

This Muslim preacher is talking about the order of the universe and how even when things are in chaos, they are ordered.  However, I disagree with one statement.  When white man willingly oppresses the Black man as in the Los Angeles Rodney King case,  the order of the universe is disrupted because man is choosing an evil path that he could refrain from.  The white police officers could have avoided mistreating Rodney King.  Sin and disgrace can be avoided by the will of man.

Do you recognize your sinful actions? Can you define the existence of God?

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/tabernaclefaith/2016/04/13/midnight-salvation-the-existence-power-of-god-usurps-illuminati-1


The core of spiritual darkness that looms over a person is when they have one stronghold that they cling to that overrules their life that is against the true nature of God.  This kind of person can build on this philosophy with their own version of truisms but at the end of the day they are left in misery and remain in darkness.  Full obedience and repentance of sin is the only way to cleanse one's carnality and turn over one's will to God.  The first step is being willing to change one's way.  I know a person who clings to spiritual darkness and he lashes out on others when things are going poorly for him.  I don't think he even realizes he does it.  In his own mind, he is holding his distance from people.  Others can perceive he is on the brink of emotional shutdown but instead of turning to his closest friends, he tries to punish people in his present for the things he experienced in the past.  In the book, "Healing the Shame that binds you," there is a chapter on grace, guilt and debt collecting.  A person who hates their mother per se, will engage in power struggles with women he perceives as a threat.  A woman who had negative experiences with her father, will attempt to punish men she dates or are involved with on some other personal level.  The debt collector transfer their unresolved childhood anger onto to people they target as a threat.  Instead of stepping back and trying to define the reasons he/she may resent this person, they just use their emotional imbalance as a weapon.

The attached link is not about blaming or debt collecting.  It is about an unlikely debate between two Christians and one adult caller on our show who is unsure of his spiritual identity and was fielding a bunch of questions about God, eternity and destiny.

Signs that someone is a Christian

Signs of a Christian 

Is there a way that you or I can know that we are a Christian, and that we have the Holy Spirit's presence in our lives, and thus God's promise of eternal life: John 5:24; I John 2:25?  
In the following pages we will delve into this topic in some detail with the intent to provide the reader a "yard stick" whereby one can compare his or her life and lifestyle to that of what the Scriptures tell us about those who believe in God, and in Jesus.  For "He who has the Son, has the life; he who does not have the Son of God does not have the life." I John 5:12.

A Personal Relationship with the risen Christ:  Does God ever "speak" to (i.e. communicate with) us in any way, shape, or form?  If not, then we need to question whether or not we even have a Personal relationship with Him.  For that is what the Lord means by His statement: "I never knew you" in Matt. 7:23.  Also in John 10:7-15, 27-28 Jesus said that: 

"Truly, truly, I say to you, I am the door of the sheep.  All who came before me are thieves and robbers, but the sheep did not hear them.  I am the door; if anyone enters through Me, he shall be saved, and shall go in and out, and find pasture.  The thief comes only to steal, and kill, and destroy; I came that they might have life, and might have it abundantly.  I am the good shepherd; the good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep;  He who is a hireling, and not a shepherd, who is not the owner of the sheep, beholds the wolf coming, and leaves the sheep, and flees, and the wolf snatches them, and scatters them.  He flees because he is a hireling, and is not concerned about the sheep.  I am the good shepherd; and I know My own, and My own know Me, even as the Father knows Me and I know the Father; and I lay down My life for the sheep."  Emphasis Added

"My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; and I give eternal life to them, and they shall never perish; and no one shall snatch them out of My hand." Emphasis Added

Our Beliefs and Confession about Jesus:  In I John 4:2-3 and 15 we are told that:

"By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit (or person) that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God; and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God; and this is the spirit of antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming, and now it is already in the world....Whoever confesses that Jesus is the Son of God, God abides in him, and he in God."

In this passage we are told that Jesus Christ came in the flesh, meaning that he literally became a man, and that there was something different about Him. This is made more clear in John 14:8-9 where Philip asked Jesus to "show us the Father...", and Jesus replied by saying: "Have I been so long with you, and yet you have not come to know Me, Philip?  He who has seen Me, has seen the Father..."  In other words, Jesus was saying that if God, the Father, had became a man, he would have been a man just like Jesus, and in so doing Jesus was also claiming to be God.  See also Luke 22:70; John 1:1-3, 10-14; 5:22-24; Phil. 2:5-11 and Col. 1:15-18.
In John 8:24 and 14:6, we are told we can only come to the Father by coming to, or through, Jesus, and that when we accept Him as our Lord, we get the Father as well.  That's what Jesus meant by "we" in John 14:23; and in I John 5:1-5 we read that:

"Whoever believes that Jesus is the Christ is born of God; and whoever loves the Father loves the child born of Him.  By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God and observe His commandments.... and His commandments are not burdensome. Emphasis Added
For whatever is born of God overcomes the world; and this is the victory that has overcome the world -- our faith.  And who is the one who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.?  Emphasis Added

So here we see that Jesus is the Christ: meaning that He is the ONLY Christ.  For  there is no other name whereby we MUST BE saved: Acts 4:12.  And it is "through Him we are believers in God," (I Peter 1:21) and apart from Him we can do nothing  (John 15:4-5).  In other places we are told that Jesus is the one who literally holds the Universe together: Col. 1:15-17.  See also John 1:1-3, 10; 3:14-15; 8:24; Heb.1:1-2; and II Cor. 5:10. 

A Changed Life:  One of the surest signs of someone who is "born-again" is a changed life.  For example, before we committed our lives to Christ we rarely went to church, took drugs, got drunk, looked at porn, and/or engaged in sex outside of marriage.  And now we regularly attend church, and/or study the Bible, have Christian friends, stopped using drugs and getting drunk, threw out the porn, and are now living for God and His kingdom.

The above list is only an example, and even if we are happily married with a family does not necessarily mean we are a Christian; nor does a bad marriage, or a divorce, necessarily mean we aren't.  However, our ability to get along with others -- and especially God's people -- is an indicator of who we are and where we are going, but it is by no means a surefire indicator in and of itself.  Another sign that someone is "born again" is:

A Love for others and for God's People:  In I John 3:14-15 we are told that: 

"We know that we have passed out of death into life, because we love the brethren.  He who does not love abides in death.  Everyone who hates his brother is a murderer; and you know that no murderer has eternal life abiding in him."

And in I John 2:9-11 we are told that:

"The one who says he is in the light and yet hates his brother is in the darkness until now.  The one who loves his brother abides in the light and there is no cause for stumbling in him.  But the one who hates his brother is in the darkness and walks in the darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes."

And in I John 4:7-8 we are told:

"Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.  The one who does not love does not know God, for God is love."

Fellowship with other Christians: In Hebrews 10:25 we are told not to forsake meeting with other Christians.  This does not mean that we never miss church or Sunday School, or that we must attend a Bible study group, nor does it meant that we must belong to a church.  And in this regard Proverbs 18:1 says that: "He who separates himself seeks his own desire," and "quarrels against all sound wisdom."  

So if someone cl

The vision of heaven with visuals

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma2TxqboT1Q

This has great visuals but the audio is a little echo-ey.    Revelations 21 and 22.  The water of life that sustains us.  It says God's illumination will light the new world..no need for a sun or moon.  There will be no more darkness.

Hollow Life - Son of David Cursed

His vision
blurred between horizontal lines
fact and fiction
distinguished by faith
in self
the carnal lines
traced through his veins
termite endings of capitulation
seeds of Satan
inside his stormy blood
of non David lineage
The Son of David
erased from his heritage
Catholic roots
Italian mercernary blended
with Irish drought
the death of Christ
in his mind
equivalent to Family Guy
and mimicky cartoons
pre-conviction
never developed
split conscience
pierced side
not penetrating
destined to hell
by laughable jokes
inside the carnage of his mind
benign substance
seedy thoughts
arrogant grief
a fool's pride
the psalmist
wrote about him ieons before
in a fake age
before electrical plugs
and phony outlets
and now he sees his passage downstream
an over-riding boat of memory
and unanswered prayers
rotted flesh
fills the river
and his sins aren't washed
his limbs turns to limestone
and his future is finite
inside Satan's temporary watchtower.
jdh
02.22.13