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Wednesday, September 20, 2017

I am posting a blog tomorrow about family reconciliation.

I have been busy with my two jobs, and getting back into the Fall swing.

I work in an elementary school and also have a night job.

Please listen to our episode about on Christian doctrine, Mormonism, Mormon perspectives on the lost tribe of Israel, the origins of Mormonism, divisiveness in Protestant sects and more.

Sunday, August 13, 2017


Was Ernest frustrated with himself in the video below?  

I don't feel Ernest has been fully honest with himself.  He decided a long time ago, he would no longer work.  He refused to apply for disability.  He currently thinks he is a celebrity and people are chomping on the bit to buy his book.  Even if 20 people buy his book, it won't make him a celebrity.  He has burned every friendship except for 2.  I have given him many chances in life and I have my own chapter that I will complete when I am done with my screenplay in September. 

It is not about harshly criticizing someone.  It is about coming to terms with people and accepting their weaknesses.  

Ringing up a phone bill for $1,100 as he did is not okay.  I have confronted him with this and I have forgiven him.  However, he did burn my friend, Marguerite.  He never apologized, even when I confronted him once on the radio.

My shortcomings was the second reason our friendship dissolved.  He could not accept my gambling addiction and somehow, interloped Brian into the situation.  He cannot live without Brian's sustenance and approval.  I am not friends with Brian.  He is just someone I knew through Ernest.

I hope Ernest finds peace of mind.  I could not find peace of mind unless I am working.  He has never taken responsibility for his life.

Was Ernest frustrated with himself in the video below?  


________________________-  I don't know

The video below may provide the answer.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

Best episode in a year or so; Jon is burdened by certain tensions

Jon and I had recent conflict on our radio show regarding religious perspective and male/female perceptions.  It happened about 3 weeks ago and it still seems to bother him.  I don't know how I can continually rectify the situation beyond explaining my world view until I am blue in the face and yet, someone such as him, cannot fully comprehend my struggle to enlighten him and in reverse, he to me.  The reason I brought up world view is because I see the world from a Christian and neutral intellectual.  What I mean by that, is I understand the Christian prophecy that must take place before the Second Coming of Christ.  There will be a major confrontation of world powers btwn Russia, US and China in the Middle East.  We are beginning to see the edges of this prophecy and the dividing line with the escalation of Kim Jong Un.  As a political scientist, I can crisply define the world from a pragmatic point of view.  There are 34% of the world population who are Christians and 23% who are Islam.  From a purely religious perspective, the sons of Abraham are fighting with a sibling rivalry for the most holy and dedicated sects of God.  From a purely Christian perspective, ultimate divinity only comes through sacrifice and laying down of self for our brother.  Therefore, Christians cannot get involved in war or bully others even on a national platform.  Each person born into a particular faith will honor that faith until they find a fallible proof that the religion cannot support their life view.  Just as many younger people abandon the Catholic church in it's strictness and revelation of dishonorable priests (as an example), a handful to perhaps a persuasive margin will leave due to their worldly passions that don't coincide with the religion-they choose worldiness over prudent living.   When I am trying to discuss just pragmatic facts like how I perceive people are influenced or why certain Musllims prey on others such as Isis on the Peshmerga in Northern Iraq and Tureky , I try to state conflicts like this in geopolitical terms mixed in with current events.  Jon tries to take the immediate Christian view and perceives Islam in itself as a threat.  This is just one watered down example.  Sometimes, two friends cannot come head to head with an issue and meet in the middle.  At some points, I thought it was damaging the radio show because he took a very narrow view regarding an Islamic female leader I had on the air.  I forgive him for it, but he was defensive because our guest was trying to explain her disagreement with the Muslim ban and the impact it has had on visitors/Us residents staying here & future limitations in six major countries.  She is Yemenese descent and it impacted her directly regarding relatives and friends. It offended me that he would infiltrate and confront a guest this way without hearing what she was tyring to project. 

Needless to say, it was a difficult time and a moment of truth for our radio show.  I am trying to analyze and dissect policy, presidential behavior, modern conflict and it seems to me, certain cohosts are only trying to promote their world view without taking a moment to breathe and see someone's other condition in the world.  

In the same way, certain people reject Syrian refugees and treat them as non victims, we can only do our best to help those in need without judging and being fearful of others different than us.  Some of our cohosts have dissed people we have not been exposed to or have stopped to try to understand.  For example, Albert distrusts all rich people and the mainstream media and thinks those in those composite groups have a faulty agenda.  We must welcome the stranger and bridge the gap of communcation deficiencies to brighten our world, even if the communication block is between intimate friends. Last week, we had a harmonious show but Jon was not a participant because he took a few weeks off to regroup.  He may be back but I don't know.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

King of the World

I was once king of the world
now I am a martyred saint
I took the stripes for each sin
Each push of the wheel drew blood
I am now a bloodless martyr
grazing the streets
with a message of redemption

Some people are tone deaf

I look for the forlorn
those who are hungry all the time
Looking for a brother or friend
the begotten
the beguiled
the non sold out genius

Not a lot of people understand God
They are too busy reading self help books
or eating the right food
Lay down
and pray the manifesto of Christ
eventually you will get it.

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Turkey's geo-political importance between Europe and the Middle East.
The 2016 coup d'etat attempt by a faction of the military in Turkey.

Gun control and management and how police keep making irrational decisions.

Tune in with Jane, Ben and Albert to last Sunday night's episode.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Somewhere inbetween

The curtains drawn
the world still comes in
My Saturn wings are swelling 
My impulse control burgeoned out
by uncommon mistakes
circling in a pool of battered rams
of shepherd less leadership
Time mashes out faraway relatives
but faraway relatives rise in my conscience
some encourage, others devour
reminiscent feelings of yesteryear
I am safe here
far enough away from real pain
the rawest of memories
I can weed people out like a fiery prophet
and bury their image in an unthreshed wheat field
Life and death are part of the same equation
my breath is the passage into both worlds
Those that have meaning are in both places
At night I close my eyes and see the kingdom come
apart from earthly struggles 
It will be over someday
I will change planetary consciousness
plunge into the divine
and erase all life that cannot ascend
the steps of wisdom.