Six days later

It's taken me six days since I spoke to him last, to sort out the truth.  There is no future court date.  It was another Paul Bunyan story.  That is okay.  The fog is lifting.  I am getting back to my old self.  I just don't understand why twice this week, I discovered two different women still want to be in a fully committed relationship with an alcoholic.  After seeing someone else for awhile now who is perfectly generous and capable and honest, I can see why I was in so much distress for 4 months.

I finished my bulletin board at the school and I finished my first week in my newly promoted position at my primary f.t. job.  It's been a grueling week.  We had a new member at Toastmasters last night from India.  Open house is next week.  If you think you have a need to improve your public speaking skills, you can come.

I understand the women who stay with alcoholics.  There was a smattering of alcoholism in my family.  It forced me to strive for perfection.  My mother from the Iron Range was a saint.  My father was withdrawn and reclusive.  Alcoholism is a chronic condition of Northern Minnesotans and Wisconsin people.  I stopped drinking in 1983 after college.  All 4 now.

And for all you descendants from the Iron Range, never back down.  Make your man own his bullshit.

Knowing the truth

and doing the same.
You know I know better.
Recognize, but can you??
More dangerous than the truth is maintaining the lie.
It's cool.  We all need security.


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcF5wl2PlmU

Don't contact me again, Ernest

You are the one who contacted me 3 times tonight demanding that I do things your way.  I saved the texts.

Don't bother contacting me again.  We are done.

Our friendship is over.  You deleted all Jon, Bob and my radio episodes....You are toast.  You say people create drama, but you do to by tampering with intellectual property.  One of your radio colleagues told me how to get the podcasts back.

The only other E. S. in New York State is 110 years old.

The Northern city in New York where the possible crime was committed will be verified by 9 a.m. tomorrow.   

Clashing with aethiests

In the last 2-3 weeks I have had strong headed confrontations with aethiests, who seem to come my way by pity or friendship.  Some can be naturally forgiven since I have known them since my late teens.  Others, are Hollywood transients or strongholds - one a well known literary figure in L.A., another a hairdresser.  They seem righteous and passionate about their cause, to be separated from the body of Christ because they have looked at Christians who have let them down over history and amassed images in their head that all Christians are not genuine, but party spoilers or crepe hangers.  It seems that most aethiests dont really want to pick apart scripture or recognize the role of Judaism, Christianity and Islam in the historical context.  Only science is valid and they won't recognize the form of interpretive and theological knowledge that derives from great thinkers as St. Thomas Aquinas, St. Augustine, even Hobbes and others who pondered religion.  They discount the whole impact and influence of Christianity - Christ as the individual savior, the prophets, the foreshadowing, the critical conflicts between man vs. man, man vs. God, and broken down into minute parts like Irish vs. English and how religious conflict has played out.  What is at the source of this friction?  My radio show will give you some answers.


http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ernestradionetwork/2013/01/16/beaten-path-predatory-selling-christian-socialism

The rug pulled out from under me

Nobody wants to dwell on bad things but I have found out this week from one experience and a set of events that the person I am working for in one room is a terrible person. This week she lied about something I did. She told the supervisor. I found out another administrator at my job got passed over by a job from her because she gave out bad references. I wonder what her problem is. I decided to step back from the situations and play out all the scenarios in my head including putting in my resignation. I really don't need someone accusing me of doing something a third grader could accomplish when I am age 50. I am going to politely ask for different hours or a different room. I am so over having a crisis about things I cannot control. I know what my worth is and if someone is going to attempt to downgrade me, I will fight back but not in an overt manner. I will use logic, persuasion and instinct to overcome adversity. I know the employee manager is capable of seeing the forest through the trees. I have to trust she will. Well, tonight I have to analyze a speech by Daniel Webster so I am not going to dwell on the sorrow I experience at work. I got a new desktop computer and love, love, love it. I am thankful for extra time I had today to recuperate. In God's love, Jane