Sui*c*de Fantasy/saying goodbye without affirming it

Wouldn't we all like to disappear into an Amy Winehouse exit? A vague ending, a non specific toxology text, no spin doctors to do her in with proposol....its like "I love you mum," later, dude.
Say goodbye with the slight wave of the wrist, a limp, thin, pale wrist that was often needle induced, being remembered for special talents. Going down with heroin or hard alcohol is a graphic kind of death, a David Kennedy kind of death, yet out of time and place. We as a health driven society are past the dirty drug phase, so why was Amy caught in the net? And why did she have to follow the network media prophecy that she would find her doom? Just a month ago, she staggered on a Belgrade stage and made a less than stellar spectacle of herself. So, I see people would rather relish in those few depricating moments than click on her more spellbinding videos where she still remains non chalant, uncaring but precise in delivery. So Amy Winehouse in her unguarded presence is my new anti hero, for the moment, to say goodbye with no regrets leaving the world to grieve her while they soullessly search for her worst moments while trying to find her hidden golden lining that she revealed to maybe two people: Blake and Kelly Osborne.

Jane Hoffman's Political Gravity Radio Show BTR

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/ernestradionetwork/2011/08/01/political-gravity-with-jane-hoffman--pazzaria

I interviewed Daniel Rappaport of Pizzaria Productions tonight on BTR. Enclosed is the link.
The last fifteen minutes is dedicated to Amy Winehouse, the post life prodigy to be exalted and praised for her non conformity and unraveled by social examination.

Amy, death of youth, immortality

Soulful
enchanting
a face of curiosity
hazel faraway eyes
obscure lyrics
entrenched in self acclaimed sorrow
enchanted with the anti thesis
refusing to embrace the
joy of life
finding the dark sides
glancing through the blinds
of dusk and indifference
knowing herself
plunging the needle in further
til no one could find her.