Copy and Paste for your Lawyer; Semi Conclusion

I am reluctant to give this blog my undivided attention now that I have a ton of new irons in the fire.

I really only struggled one this day this week over MM.  Most of it is just like floating garbage in the Hudson River, it may come back to haunt me/ but the lies and bullshit won't defeat me.

I really don't have the time to get into all the feelings I had this morning, but the Holy Spirit allowed me to conquer most of my doubts.

I want to clarify something for Mr. Richard S. Gondik.

I did not contact KK to interlope as a 3rd party communicator on behalf of MM.  I contacted her independently (before I was properly informed of 3rd party issue) to find out what drove her to file a restraining order on MM.  I wanted to know if there were lies,  emotional abuse, tall tales and broken commitments.  I learned part of that through observation on social media (undisclosed).  Some women want to leave the past in the past and I fully understand that.  She was cordial and explained to me professionally the sensitivity of the roundabout contact.  I apologize to her if I jeopardized her piece of mind by even making an inquiry. 

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I never intended to get involved in a melodrama where I was the unrecruited actress in a love triangle.  I did not want or choose to be the other woman, sometimes the primary sexual object, other times the back burner woman, most times just one of two women who were lied to.  I demanded to be treated better.  I insisted on answers.  There was a lot of behind the scenes conversations with MM and I on the phone through our work phones, etc.  He could not really come clean as to why he did everything he did.  He literally did not have an answer.  The reason why is he lived entirely for the moment.  Whatever his need or desire was AT THAT MOMENT is how he conducted himself.  Therefore, all my efforts to try and reform him were fruitless.  He cannot even conceive what I was aiming for.
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I do feel a sense of displacement still but I know I will get stronger day by day.  I feel detached in a good way, that is in the rear view mirror.

Gotta run.

Janessa