I have come a long way in 4 years. I have enough dating experience to be Dr. Ruth. I had a lover from 2018 to 2019 who was cosmic but he had a controlling girlfriend that triangulated our relationship. It ended up becoming more dramatic that a late night BBC Monty Python episode where she would sit in the driveway and call me while I was inside of his house. In many ways she was pathetic but also smart. However, she couldn't break the bond of her obsession and blamed others when things didn't go her way. I had a hard time determining loyalty as time went on because she was so demanding and he was so non coherent of what he was doing or why. He was a sex addict.
I left the situation in January 2019 for someone else. I dated someone who was supposed to move back to Wisconsin but didn't so I had to keep flying out there b/c he ran two businesses and worked a FT job at a big corporation. He definitely had social limitations and lacked education. I dealt with it because he was down home and super good looking. At times, I was compensating too much and purposely overlooked his shortcomings. In the end, he was devoted t me in communication but even with his limited way of thinking he didn't have a concrete plan for the future and had some weird sexual ideas. I became dissatisfied and dumped him and took him back as a friend. Now we have a non verbal truce to keep it light.
I recently had an encounter that I can't reveal on here but it reminded me that I will not settle. I am not on anyone's beck and call list. It is going to be on my terms or none at all. I got someone on deck who lives in Gordon who I haven't even met yet but like the best. Dating at this point is a recreational sport, not a necessity. I am going on two trips this summer and have other priorities. I need to take care of myself and not cater to people with high demands.
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