Rocky period Revised

After 26 months of fake news and false innuendos, I was forced to say goodbye to Mike.  It may have been better if we had a drag down yelling match but it didn't happen that way.  After my son left for Georgia, I gave it about a month after my visit there in February to share my feelings with him that it was not going to work out.  I was at his house in Colorado 4 days and it was an up/down trip but not as bad as last summer.  He is dependent on me like a mommy figure, not a girlfriend.  In the last few weeks starting about March 15th, I started mailing him a series of about 3 letters.  He didn't seem to fully grasp what any of them said.  He did get the main point out of the first one.  Then we had 2 painful phone conversations.  The first one, he did not have complete answers to my lingering questions.  The second phone call, I had just come out of a mind altering movie.  He kept asking how he can help.  He asked to help but he wouldn't come up with anything to fix our problems so he held back.  So I hung up and text him and requested him not to communicate to me anymore.  I did regret it but for the last 2 years he uses the word "friends" as a peace offering when it is really cannonized dynamite.  The truth is I loved him and I don't think he had the deep feelings for me.  Sometimes, I have to face reality but he lied about a few key things so it made it difficult to interpret what his wants/needs were in the relationship.  I revised this blog because we made up and we are still close in everyday contact.