Everything has to end. Who determines the end and beginning of our feelings? Are they legitimate? Who determines when it's right to be involved with someone or not. Is it good to live for the moment or just progress slowly, develop a bond. What is finite, what is true? If I already have a physical connection to someone, why is it so hard to end?
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I am going to see Colorado Mike in 11 days. It is almost anti climatic. We have already been talking 3 months. I wouldn't say the expectations are high b/c we pretty much know what we want from each other. If he moves back to Wisconsin in June, things will intensify. He still has 2 kids 18 and under but the 10 year old lives with his ex. I am just living la viva loca, not trying to anticipate anything but hoping I will enjoy the weekend at his place --4 days, 3 nights. I need a break from the work cycle and be able to enjoy myself in the fresh mountains of Colorado. All 4 now.
This blog is about my struggles and redemption. There are tales of interpersonal conflict with men who I have dated. I would like to elevate the blog to healing and redemption, tools I have learned in my 12 step meeting.
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