Choices

I loved Michael because he afflicted me. I love the new Michael because he loves and cherishes me.  But now I vow to do everything in love.

What does that mean?  Do people want to be afflicted?  No, but the suffering brought out a stronger desire to love those who were confused.  I loved MM with my whole, penitent heart.  I was by his side.  But when it was revealed that he had another woman in the back drop, I was forced to realize in the most positive light, he was confused, he didn't know what he wanted.  He told me he lied about her because if I knew he had another woman, I would not sleep with him.  I forgive him because he is attached to the carnal world.  the carnal world is where humans only cultivate their human, fleshly desires.  He wanted endless, pleasurable sex from me.  I gave it to him.  But the carnal world ultimately is not the true satisfaction.  It breaks one down just as when people lie, steal, gamble and do false things to get ahead.  Eventually, people will find their spiritual compass or they will perish.