THE REAL ME

DON'T TAKE SUCH A DEEP INTEREST IN ME.

I ISOLATE AND DON'T LET PEOPLE IN.

MY OUTWARD BEAUTY IS A DISGUISE.

MY INWARD STATE IS IN FLUX.

BIG DEEP CIRCLES OF THOUGHT FLUCTUATE THROUGHOUT MY BRAIN EACH DAY BUT....

I NO LONGER WANT TO SPEND 3-6 HOURS IN THE LIBRARY LIKE MY PROFESSOR AT NCCU DID.  I'VE SPENT 30 YEARS IN SCHOOL & COLLEGE OUT OF 53 I BELIEVE.   I SOMEWHAT LIVE FOR THE MOMENT BUT I DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TOOLS IN DULUTH TO MEET ALL MY NEEDS.  I DON'T HAVE MY FAMILY AND CLOSE FRIENDS.  I HAVE SOME FRIENDS BUT MY CLOSER FRIENDS IN PROXIMITY ARE IN MINNEAPOLIS.

I BELONG TO A GOOD CHURCH.  WHEN YOU ARE PART OF THE BODY OF CHRIST, WHERE YOU ARE IS IN THE CENTER OF THAT BODY WHEREVER IT MAY BE.

I AM LEARNING CONTENTNESS EVEN THOUGH I AM RESTLESS AND SOMETIMES RECKLESS.  I AM LEARNING TO OBEY GOD MORE EACH DAY.   MY SALVATION IS A STEPPING STONE FROM CARNAL TO SPIRITUAL, SURRENDER TO OBEDIENCE.

I AM ALL THAT I AM.  I AM FILLED WITH KNOWLEDGE BUT CRAVE CERTAIN SENSORY ELEMENTS, EVEN IF ITS THE LIGHT OFF THE TREES.

I AM REAL.