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I don't feel caught in the middle anymore.  I feel respected and validated.  The anxiety that was pervading my life 2 weeks ago is gone.  Colorado Mike and I have worked things out as well.

The remaining question is --when people have to be accountable for their own legal shortcomings, why are they barking up other people's trees trying to look for possible ways to damage them.  I am not under the law right now, I am clean from that type of burden.  I am willing to help others on their 12 step journey but I don't want to stand accused because I crossed someone's path that made a tremendous impact on me.

I have learned a lot from this one particular connection.  I am also learning to control my emotions and what I demand from this person.  I did grow up spoiled.  My twin sister and I were the babies of the family, we got a lot of attention.  I got a lot of attention as a standout cross country and track star in high school.  I got more attention when my play was on cable and other public things I have done like run for office.  I realize I can be demanding.

The one thing I have learned to do is not villify someone for misunderstanding in communication. 
By watching Investigation Discovery ID channel, I have seen the extremes of human behavior in dealing with loved ones.

I want to remain calm and loving and nuturing in all my male/female relationships.  All for now.