The truth --release

 I never cheated anybody, I never lied, I sometimes silently put up with things I did not want to.  i was never a coward and sometimes too forthright.  Yet I was told sometimes that i was "mean" by MM.  It may not look like it on this blog, but I was the subservient one.  I adapted to all the changes he modified daily, I accomodated him.  I was not mean. I have to get this aspect of MM off my chest.  The week I went to the police on Dec 4 2018, MM refused to come to the door to discuss it.  He put my pajamas outside at 8 p.m. even though he said at 7 p.m. he had to go to his fathers.  Even the day we were supposed to meet following my visit to the police, we were to meet at Perkins West.  He said he could not meet because his son cooked him meat loaf.  He never believed for a minute I went to the police.  He didn't take me seriously.  Only when I briefly saw him that Friday night near Super One, he cried.  He was acting in a drama.  He begged me to go to the police to withdraw the report.  Mind you,there would have been no report if he was able to confront me that first Thursday in December.  Instead, he sat on his hands and hid in his house.  He had no interest in hearing what I had to say until there was a legal consequence.  I made the police report so I could document what happened.  I was scared, too.  I wasn't mean.  I was honest and afraid because he made me that way.  I had become the object of his sexual pleasure minus the sincerity.

I looked up Kendra's restraining order petition.  All the documentation including the original documents and the progress of the case is on file on the left side of the case after you enter the defendant's birthday.  MM stated he continued to harass her after he was told to stop by the police because he was afraid she would cut his phone service off.  If she wanted to achieve the goal of him leaving her alone, she would have cut the phone service off.  He told me while we were still on good terms, that he kept calling her to beg him to marry him.  He pled no contest to 2 or 3 counts.  His lawyer did handle some details that he probably could not have gotten out of if he had faced the the court alone.  One of the charges was dropped.  

Beyond having a good lawyer, do people recognize the problems they create for themselves just by not being honest and true?  Only you have the answer.

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