I loved MM so much I did not know where to put my pain after it ended. Some of it involved blogging. Something happened today that helped me to open up my insight into how he perceives me.
I realize with all the goodness gushing through my veins, that MM may have seen me as an oppressor. I was not the oppressor but I might have conflagurated the situation by irritating some people around him.
I loved him solidly and by sacrifice. Because he was so wishy washy and indecisive, I could not determine exactly what he wanted. But I was determined to love him.
Because God has blessed me immensely today, I want to say that the Holy Spirit has laid it on my heart to do the most I can out of love. God has laid it on my heart that MM is in distress so I will pray for him.
I have been delivered today through the Holy Spirit.
It is hard to balance earthly love with spiritual compassion.
This blog is about my struggles and redemption. There are tales of interpersonal conflict with men who I have dated. I would like to elevate the blog to healing and redemption, tools I have learned in my 12 step meeting.
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