Current Stressors

 My main job at a residential treatment center for people recovering from alcohol and drugs demands 4 days of my week, sometimes 5.  I am now working a hybrid schedule.  I work two days 3 to 11 p.m.  I work two overnights a week.  Each week since around March 7, I have had to juggle schedules from 3 diff jobs.  Two jobs used to be overnights which means when I was not at treatment Center, I was at FedEx.  Many weeks, I never sleep in my own bed at night.  Coupled with the fact, I do an office job 15 hours a week, which is flexible.  In July, my son graduated from basic training.  I traveled to Georgia.  Less than 2 weeks after that, two days after his 23rd birthday, his father died suddenly at age 54.  There are days when I just have to back off from people and not interact socially.  The overwhelming feeling of Loran's dad who had been in our lives since 1997 got to be too much.  Except for Melissa, Donna, Colorado Mike and Jon, I don't often have time to do checkups on my other friends including my cousin in his 80s who is ill.  I do not know how long I will go on this harrowing path of a highly stressful lifestyle of 3 jobs but for now, that is what I am doing.  It is interfering with my social life and a few other fragile situations.  My time is worth more than gold and those who are in my life will have to learn to respect the limitations I have with time.