On one hand, he was very attentive to me on an every day basis up until our last major argument which was Aug 29. We made up on Tuesday, Sept 8th and things seemed fine. It turned out, based on our phone call today, he had leftover resentment over something I did which was totally innocent. But it caused him anger.
Well, now the harsh letter I sent to his home address which I never thought he would get ended up in his appropriate P.O. Box. I did bring up the fact that my hunches are correct that he grew up in an alcoholic family based solely on his unique bouts of anger. Getting mad over things he has no business getting mad at and then minimizing things I get mad at which are major.
In a relationship, temperment is a big deal. I need someone easy going and goes with the flow. I don't do well with rigid people. Not only is CM rigid, his general world view and political opinions are quite rigid. I have learned that people who are not educated past 12th grade and have no college often lack critical thinnking skills. This is not true for everyone because there are h.s. dropouts that have gone on to be geniuses. CM has a very black/white, right vs. wrong view of the world which is unbending. I went to the Mike Pence rally on his behalf. I was able to write and get an opinion piece published about it in the Duluth News Tribune. See link.
Right now, it just seems like I am bitching but I was hoping something good would come out of this recent confrontation with him. You have to understand, I can be critical and demanding, it is in my nature. But if people like myself want to live an idealistic, high reaching life, they have to strive for betterment with their significant other: better communication, better understanding, mutual respect.
I am tired now on the second leg of a 24 hour shift. Netflix sounds "better" than re-hasing this bullshit.
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